Reflections in Rome

In these uncertain times
Everything that we know to be secure is thrown up for review
I have been pondering what the purpose of all of this inner searching really is
Having to go through the intense up and downs of getting to the truth

I am tired to the bone and my body is weary......

Why do I not let love in completely?

I am scared, scared of TRULY letting go completely.

I have been here before many times
This place is familiar

Hiding behind behaviours that do not serve ME, behaviours that harm the body and the mind and in the long run add to the turmoil I often feel inside
Anxiety rises, anger is here and the deadness of giving up completely this place I run from

I know that the doorway is near
the wind tunnel to freedom
to be blown away into the arms of the beloved one

Trust has disappeared and yet I beckon it home

Feeling alone knowing that this is a figment of my imagination

I reach for you and know if I am still that you will come to me love me and take me home

I wait for the moment that I am able to truly surrender to the beauty of you.....again!